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Thursday, February 15, 2007

well done. i've just officially failed 3 out of the 4 tests we've gotten back.
at this rate i wont get past sec3. not to say to rjc.

what a great way to start the day. 1.5hr maths. mrtan came in, started shouting and scolding. gave out the papers. after a few he stopped. and asked them to stand. and guess what. they were the only few that passed frm our class. 8 of them. EIGHT.
i feel quite bad for making mrtan so disappointed. but i really dont know if i understand the concepts or not! like sometimes i know how to do and other times i dont. especially when sitting for the test. i think i just freak and panic and go brain dead and cannot remember whatever i've studied. that sucks.
and he gave us CNY hw. 521 math qns, not including the sub-parts. and tmr he's giving us one more set of qns to do over the break. he actually wanted to give us 897 qns. but i guessed he realised that's a little too much.
after maths. 0.5hr IH. so when mrshaym came in. everyone was damn depressed. and dead. and no one researched on the topics he gave us. cos our last lesson was on tues. and wed we had 2 tests. then today. so basically everyone was dead and depressed. and i think we depressed him. and i think he was really quite disappointed. so he just walked out of the class. and got mrkhong in. and mrkhong talked something abt why we shld be serious abt IH blahblah which was totally irrelevant to why we didnt research. but still i feel really bad abt making mrshaym disappointed too.
recess i was super emo and depressed. saw nel and chou and started ranting. thanks lots for putting up with my crap. i was like heck about my voice and diet. and went to buy chocolate. ate like 3 bars. comfort food.
after recess, bio. mslee did the same thing as mrtan. give out, then those were the only ppl that passed. passing mark is 60% for all subjects. because of IP. so i got 27/50. which is a fail.
talk about losers.
after that was lang arts. we were supposed to do some research analysis since mrstan wasnt ard. but everyone was too bloody depressed to do any of that. someone went "missing". meaning she went somewhere in the sch and probably cried or something. a few ppl were crying in class. and others were doing random stuff. i really felt like crying too but didnt want to. and obviously if i stayed in the class i'd start crying sooner or later. so i just walked out. sat at the benches and talked to ash and ming2 who were skipping. they offered to tutor me. i think i really need tuition. esp for math. thanks(:
then lunch. had lunch prac. cny songs again. ACT happy. yes. act. was feeling so emo and down and i had to try t smile and pretend i was enjoying myself singing all those spastic songs.
chinese, wulaoshi didnt come. again=.= did this compre with like 4 qns and they were like all personal opinions=.= then physics. i fell asleep again. and mrschua was like JEM TOILET WASH FACE. i seriously wonder why she calls me jem=.= and i wonder why she always manages to catch me falling asleep during her lessons. the weather was so hot! and the classroom was so stuffy. i'd definitely fall asleep can.

then. as the bus was just abt to stop for me to get down. it started POURING. like seriously super heavy. i was quite shocked. so anyway. the rain was so heavy, and there was no shelter other than the busstop. and i didnt want to stand at the busstop. so i just walked in the rain. i just walked and kind of took my time. it was quite cold because the wind was blowing towards me, sending rain and all kinds of weird stuff towards me. within seconds i was totally drenched. my sch uni which is btw totally white was like totally dripping wet. but you know what. i didnt care. it felt really good you know. like while walking in the rain i felt like it was like destressing. just slowly walked through the rain. ignoring stares and all. finally reached the shelter at the coffeeshop and 7/11 and the bubbletea shop there. the nice nice aunty frm the hair saloon came out and she insisted on getting me a towel t dry myself(: it's really these random little acts of kindness that make my day. we talked a little and apparently she was frm nanyang too!(: anyway. i didnt feel like getting wet anymore so i waited till the rain stopped before walking home. my clothes were still wet through. soaked and transparent. i just sneezed. i think i caught a cold frm walking in the rain. but i dont care. it's worth it.

cny tmr. have t sing the cny songs=.= good after tmr no more cny songs till nxt yr. after celebrations going back to pri sch. i wonder who else is going back. i wonder if there'll still be anyone left in the sch after i rush back=.= gosh thinking of all those math qns i have to do is making me sick. i think i'll slack tmr and play basketball. or watch ppl play basketball.
ohwell.

gosh it's only 2221! and it feels so late already. i seriously wonder why i'm so tired. not like i've been sleeping very late or anything.

lost myself at 8:47 PM